Confessions of a Shrinking Woman

So, as I’ve written about from time to time, I’m on a perpetual quest to lose weight. I’ve been doing Weight Watchers lately, which I’m finding easier to follow and stick with than previous efforts, and the online tracking component feeds my incessant need to log onto electronic devices to validate myself.

I’ve been swimming again, and loving it.  My portion size awareness is at record levels. I just ate carrots for a snack and sort of enjoyed it (the sort of I attribute to the garlic hummus).  I’ve lost pounds, I feel amazing and can almost begin to see changes to my body (I will swear that my tummy is just a little bit less jiggly).

And yet, despite all these good things, I still want to eat more than I should, of the kinds of foods I shouldn’t.  This annoys me.  I should be able to master these thoughts and cravings; I’m a strong woman.  And yet…like so many…I find it hard not to be food-obsessed.

So, as I’ve tended to use this blog, and the process of digitally writing things down, as a form of therapy, I thought I’d try something new.

Maybe if I write down the things I want to eat, it’ll make it easier not to eat them.  Let’s give it a shot.  Here they are, in no particular order:

1. Brats

Perhaps it’s because I know that friends of mine were enjoying them today on the Terrace in Madison, one of the best places in the world…but I want brats.  Not just one, either…and I want the buns to be basted in butter.  A Spotted Cow to wash it down wouldn’t hurt, either.

2.  Queso

Anyone on WW will tell you that baskets of tortilla chips at Mexican restaurants are tools of the devil.  Salsa, on the other hand, is a good thing, but man…it’s hard to realize that I will never again be able to share a whole basket of chips and queso with a friend without having to smack myself upside the head.

3.  Bagels

Yes, I know, there are bagel thins.  But they are not the same as the chewy goodness of the bagels from my local bakery….you know, that place where even when you ask them to “go easy” on the cream cheese they give you half a container’s worth.  Oh yes, I know I could still have one, and only eat half of it and be really strict about the cream cheese…but where’s the fun in that?  🙂

4.  Orange Chicken from Chinese takeout

To make this work, I’d have to eat approximately 2 pieces of chicken with 2 spoonfuls of rice.  Gah.

5.  Chocolate Chip Ice Cream sandwiches

There’s just no point in trying.

We’ll have to wait until tomorrow to see if this little therapy exercise worked.  In the meantime, try it for yourself…what foods get you obsessed, and how do you deal with it?

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